My lovely bro.

everyone who knows me know that i've always wanted a brother, a younger brother. i bet im doing things good all these years so god heard me, he sent me a brother this summer. i had no idea hw thgs happen but we just turn to be no-more-akwardness-friends very sudden. had so much fun time talking, playing, eating, doing everythg with him. he's more like a tiny young kid to me although he's just 11 month younger than i do. do get angry with him or felt annoying, but forgot all those bad stuff after a while, well i cnt deny that he just had the magic to let ppl take care of him. just cnt stop loving this kid:)) tho feel like killing him several times. lol

Merry Christmas:)

merry christmas lovelies, it's been 20 days since my last post. xmas' my fav events of all, and u know how much i love it. but this is the very 1st xmas eve that i cnt celebrate cz thr's this l'oreal presentation thingy goin on on the coming monday. that sucks>< but still, i wudnt give up the chance spending time with my dearest friends, so i pushed myself to finish everythg by friday night.

went costco this evening to buy ingredients to prepare for the xmas dinner we're having on dec 25th. daddy sent me a msg on skype, saying thhe time he came bc frm having xmas dinner with momma. he said "merry christmas" to me and sent me a heart, how sweet daddy is. miss all those time when our family used to have xmas dinner together on xmas eve. mostly having big meals in hotel restaurants or steak house. i rmb the time mommy left me dancing in the dancefloor, shaking my lil ass follwing the xmas songs when i was around 4. lol

i miss home and of course a lil bit sad. but im not depress, im good cz i know my lovelies are all with me, they think of me whenever time:) i feel warm and loved, thanks to all the ppl which happens to be the best thing in my life. may them find joy and love, XOXO.

Never do that please.

I hate people throwing things when they get angry.

I hate people taking their anger out on others and shouted on their face.

So please don't throw your stuffs around in front of me

and please don't take your anger out on me.

I beared because you're my friend and I don't wanna fight,

but please don't do that. please...

111119

The best thing which happens in life.

LOVE

To my friend.

我曾經以爲友情是佔有

但是年紀越來越大 遇到的人越來越多

才了結當初我媽說的話背後的含義

沒有人會是你一輩子的朋友

因爲人生有好多個階段

每一個階段你會有不同的朋友

呵 會說這個表示我人生已經經過好幾個階段了

高中最煩惱的事情之一

就是爲什麽友情這件事永遠不能如我所願

爲什麽我感覺不到她重視我 爲什麽她不願意花更多時閒陪我

現在回想起來 不是蠢

就是當時的熱血青春少女

現在

我不喜歡你說我差別待遇

我不喜歡你說我抛棄你們

時間無法衡量我比較愛誰

因爲存在的意義不一樣 卻一樣深大

就像你永遠無法說你到底比較喜歡哪一部電影

因爲在不同的時候你喜歡的是不同的電影

沉靜 瘋狂 吵鬧 哭泣 大笑

你們都意義非凡

我也很高興有你們每一個人

能跟你們一起長大

是很美好的事

Dear Diary.

Sometimes u just feel strengthless to explain.

So I hand myself to my dear diary, when I'm about to sink.

About love.

這裡記錄了很多關於我的事

但是我發覺在這裡沒看過的
是我接下來要寫的這些

我承認對感情從來沒有保持過消極以外的想法

在我未來的規劃裏

我可以獨自撫養一個小孩長大

我可以不要結婚但是一直跟一個人在一起

我也可以不要一直跟一個人在一起 如果我發覺他不愛我 我也不愛他了

我絕對可以 不結婚 而且目前也沒有這個打算

我看過好多人的愛情 包括最親近的人

所以我沒有自信

我可能只是喜歡 不是愛

我可能只是暫時的怦然

我可能不會為他改變自己

我可能不會永遠跟他在一起

他可能不會為我改變自己

他也可能不會永遠跟我在一起

我擔心別人受傷害 更怕自己受傷害

我知道我永遠也無法相信任何一個他

寧願給自己保留一個受傷害時馬上可以出逃的通路

在愛情裏 we should play fair

後記：

會想寫這些是因爲最近開始想交男朋友

不只是因爲像以前是壓力莫名大心情不好的時候希望有個人可以講話

但是這次更是單純的想試試看

想嘗試把自己交給一個人 想嘗試信任

想挑戰我在看過那麽多愛情之後堆積起來的感情觀

愛 讓我感動

親情 友情 愛情

這三個題材不論放在那裏都總是讓我感動 落淚

所以即使愛情這件事發生是我這一生中可能最恨的人身上

我也無法不感動 羡慕 然後默默感到為她感到開心 祝福

幸福 不論是自己的還是別人的 是上天最棒的禮物

最近在看"我可能不會愛你" 每一句都在心裏起了微妙的變化

我想跟未來的他說

我可能不會愛你

可是我會很喜歡你 然後越來越喜歡你

一直到我不再喜歡你

好像是我唯一可以做的承諾

跟你說

很妙的在此刻

我看到了那個最熟悉的陌生人

總是在沒注意的時候溜進來 用他的笑臉佔據我的腦袋

可能在我真正找到愛情的時候 他也不會離開

晚安, 親愛的你 :)

random random.

it's been a month since my last post, so gon do this quick to keep my blog update. u shd know that reviewing the thgs u wrote in the past is a funny thing to do. those are all precious memory than u cn nvr compare with jz remembering in your brain. looking thru the sentence, the words jz make u feel hw much u hv changed, mentally and physically. u look back, and then u started to miss all those younger days.

started working in corner and nw it's a month. i love corner bcz i like the people thr, but everythg changes since we had a new teacher in charge this sem. i hate ppl who hurts the one i love, or i shd say like. it was such a disaster, and then eric left tday. i'll miss him so much, i bet everyone will do too. well...guess i've nvr mentioned abt eric before but i do like him in a unique way, yea...not in a girl-to-guy way. we din get along much but i do like to talk to him, a nice person who thinks everythg in a very diff way frm mine. and the new frn name beach, he's such a cute guy. i've heard many of his stories frm cindy and then i finally met him this year after entering corner. but unfortunately he's gon leave too, well nt exactly bcz of eric but partly...i wish i could hv more time to get together with all those ppl who are leaving frm coner. i love corner and i love everyone thr<3

promised to not go clubbing after school starts but we still do partying every week. i nt sure if it's a good thg but im sure it's not exactly a bad thg to do. went to halloween massive but it's turns out not-so-good. i shd say techno is totally not my thg, but steve aoki's awesome cz he's the only one who cn make me dance to techno musics:)) it's a good try tho, but once wud be enuf. imma go to other places nex year and thinking wht to be frm nw on. lol

been listening to american pop music for all these months, well mostly club hits. started missing the korean music...yea i don rly mean those pop musics realeased these days cz most of them sucks. i wish they could do better than tht other than jz hoping to get more groups debuting. korean hip hop and r&b is always my fav so recently im listening to the songs by the artists frm the movement crew, hip hop pioneers in korea. seriously thr's only few female rapper i agree with, cz most of them these days are jz reading sentences especially i hate the JYP style rapping. T(tasha)'s one of my fav and then followed by CL frm 2ne1. watching them jz make me feel more like learning rapping but i knw tht's a born talent which u cn nvr immitate well.

gon do a post for all my fav rappers in korea if i have the time. might take a long time cz thr'll be underground included. taking the l'oreal brandstorm competition and "had" register, still had no idea whr to start but i rly wanna impress them, have to work hard for it.

it's time for sleep so i'll continue nex time:))

sweet dreams word<3

家

總是有這樣的時候

很莫名很突然的想起我媽

然後就哭了

晚上在跟我妹聊天 問他什麽時候要來臺北

雖然很早就跟約了要去九份玩

但是拒絕了 因爲我更想跟我妹玩

雖然我們關係從小到大一直沒有很好

然後我也從小到大羡慕別人家兄弟姐妹感情很好

曾經我覺得我是討厭她的

但是離開家我還是會想念她

然後在她一個人待在高雄那麽遠的地方想家想媽媽在哭的時候

我也會想哭

因爲我擔心她那個讓我討厭的性格會讓她碰壁

沒錯 我們見面還是會吵架

在那個時候我還是討厭她的

但是

我還是想在她來找我的時候帶她出去逛逛

我還是想在她來的時候請她吃我覺得很好吃的東西

我還是會想要跟她整天待在一起

還是會很想抱抱她 雖然她會說：幹嘛抱我啦很肉麻

但是因爲她是晚我一年半出生的妹妹

所以就算再討厭我還是愛她

然後跟她聊天

我就想到我媽

所以我打電話回家

跟我媽抱怨說她爲什麽那麽就不打電話給我

然後掛電話不久後我哭了

沒有特別的原因

就是很莫名很突然 的一種感覺

那是愛 這就是所謂家人吧

家 不是house或home就可以解釋的了的含義

對離開家的小孩會有更深層的意義

我希望他們一切都安好。

他們生活的世界

看別人的照片

總是會覺得 明明住在在同一個地方的人

卻似乎生活在不同的空間裏

我會說 那種是一氣 一種磁場

有點好奇

有點羡慕

一樣的場景

卻是迥然不同的 情緒

我好像也只能透過照片

窺探 他們生活的世界

好想要有個弟弟。

我一直很希望有個哥哥 或是個弟弟

也許是因爲我們家裏都是女生的關係

但是好高興我有這樣一個學弟

雖然我們同年生然後他在年底

然後又因爲台灣開學制度的原因他小了一屆

但是我喜歡歡他 因爲他真的好像弟弟

然後一起出去吃吃喝喝我更喜歡他了

話説回來我真的好想要有個弟弟。

Autumn.

autumn always followed by a lil bit sadness

hmm yea...mayb it's just me

summer has come and past, wake me up when september ends.

a season passed and a season came,
another season, another step.

autumn makes me ponder more than usual.

it's always love which drives me so far.

so i wud always appreciate wht i have.

cheers to love, cheers to life.

W Hotel Party

i think i've nvr mention tht we hv a bunch of frns frm the business administration department in our school. and the bday girls and boys among them held a bday party at W hotel last night. the party starts early at 8pm bt thr's only like 20 of us whn we 1st get thr on time. it's an awesome night tho we end up taking care of jessica. let the pictures tell:))

had red wine and the fcking disgusting vodka, and tried whiskey and cigarette in vanilla flavor for the 1st time. thr's no like special setted up event bt the atmosphere was pretty good. we talk we drink we knw new frns. tho we got kicked out of the room bt the hotel cz making too much noise.

thx loads matt chiu, and sry for everythg happened. thx tim for the invite, thx to the pretty jayla and the caring new frn charlene. and much thx to adam who helped us take care of jess:)) u guys are awesome:D

buh-byeee Dear Summer.

暑假就這樣剩下最後兩天

真的不想看到學校裏面人越來越多

看到新生覺得他們都是吵死人的死小孩

說的時候卻忘記自己曾經也是那樣吵吵鬧鬧的死小孩

昨天把東西都搬回學校宿舍

聞到宿舍的味道好象不好的回憶又都回到腦裏

香噴噴可愛的小房閒也將隨著歡樂的暑假離開

昨天大力刷廁所用力擦地板上有夠厚的灰層

現在是明亮寬敞的小套房就要物歸原主了好捨不得

在冰箱留下了原主最愛的啤酒當作答謝他讓我們住下的禮物

我會很想念這個房間 我也想搬出去有屬於自己真正的小房閒

暑假結束也意味著我們禮拜天聚會也要結束了

所以昨天乖乖呆在家裏把能量之儲存到百分之200

今天要在我們開玩笑稱之爲家的babe18狠狠把它玩到負值

昨天在整個房間打掃清空之後大磕pizza來個兩人的pizza party

可惜一大一小外加兩盒的烤雞果然不是兩個人能解決的
報答今天早上都冰掉了可是還是拿來當中餐吃了 雖然硬硬的

不想開學 不想開學 不想開學

要說多少次才能真的不開學呢? 我願意試試看

好想明天也一直都會是今天

最近的晚上開始變涼了
秋天好像快來了

暑假再見。

HOLD住姐 Cover by Tiff

okay, i was watching a taiwan varitety show last week, and they hv this thg kinda like a "gagman competition". this woman(?) name lin lin popped out.

she made a gag perf. and got loads of support frm all the university students nw in tw, they even made her a FB fanpage. everyone's discussing abt her and sharing her vid right after the show broadcasted.

hmmm...i wonder why phenoenen happened cz i was like sitting thr and starring at her and feeling speechless tht day. is tht even called a funny preformance?!!! i jz feel retarded.

but anyway, this evening i was webcam-ing with tifanny.

she showed us her very-new-gifted-bikini, and she told us tht she tried playing with tht trick lin lin did. so she rly did showed us.

and here we go......

p.s: picture w/ description

一秒之内變格格經典重現!!! went ROFL when i see this, i think she's much much more funnier than tht girl name lin lin LMFAO

and then she tried it agn with her old bikini. it turns into a mouse!!!

i had no idea wht is this, she turned out to be a cat. MEOWWWWW......looks cute tho. haha

and then she dissapeared frm the webcam, saying: 我還要找別的

tht drives me into big laughs agn. DANG...hahahahahahahaha

and she tooks out her 小可愛
創舉!!! 格格升級變......太后!!!!
awww......i love this sooo much:DDDD

after finishing the game her hair's a messss. LOL

and her bed's also a mess. bras all over and i have to say...poor kittyXD

so this is what happened this evening. had crazy time with silly dear tiff and cindy

love u guys sooo much <3

Random.

Life is like a maze.

暑假過了一半幾乎都快要結束了
你問我做了什麽 我都說nothing much.

想當初百般不願意 是否要放掉想了又想 結果最後向現實低頭

畢竟包吃包住半個月每天還有薪水可以拿 why not 的確沒有拒絕的理由

但是我只是不想離開臺北到周圍只有山還有樹的新竹

人總是犯賤 離開的時候才開始想念

住了整整14天 離開前的晚上哭了

我不捨得所有一起工作的朋友 一起相處的小朋友

每天晚上像是聚會的開會 還有一大盤一大盤的水果

也許有點誇張 但是待在那裏開始有家的感覺

之後的日子就是每天一直在家裏像小媳婦一樣等著Cindy回來

唯一讓人興奮的好像就是可以跟親愛的朋友們出去吃吃飯 或是晚上一起跑趴

可惜的是錢花得差不多了 日子過得有些煎熬

也許開始麻木對什麽事都沒有了熱情

每天除了PPS還是PPS 想看的電影很多但還是一句沒錢

其中比較有意義的也許就是聼一些歌詞很好玩或是很有意義的歌了吧

有時候會好想做音樂 但沒辦法誰叫小時候很沒毅力的放棄了所有學音樂的機會

我還在想我以後可能就是那種會逼小孩子學音樂的媽媽

對現在沒有什麽不滿的

除了偶爾小小抱怨都不再主動打電話來的媽媽

還有郭念柔怎麽還不趕快幫我買夾腳拖 等等瑣碎的事情

順便一提havaianas真的又貴又不好穿 而且穿久了還會腳臭

雖然目前跟某些人還是處於我自己覺得有點尷尬的狀態

我一直都在努力經營這段友情 所以被主動列爲FB的sisters有點感動

也許對你來説這根本不算什麽

因爲的確有人就因爲好玩(?)還是什麽的心態把FAMILY那一欄擠滿了一堆人

開始選課了盡想選一些不用點名不用考試的爽課

大家噹都說我奢求太多了 可是就是有一些這樣的課等著我們去發掘

懶得研究的人就自己努力出席作報告考試吧

因爲我個人的原則就是絕不想要在通識課上花任何心思

雖然"寄生蟲與人生""另類醫療"這些聼起來都怪怪的但是只要讓我躺著過就好了

拔嘛都會一直問說最近在幹嘛 我還是一句"沒幹嘛啊就在家"

都會說"你還不如回家" 每次聽到這句雖然都會慣性地說"幹嘛"

但是殊不知内心都會掀起小小浪花 掛電話前都會想說一下我愛你 但最終都作罷

暑假回不回家其實沒差 我好像從來沒說過

其實我打從心底想做的其實只是考驗自己是不是夠堅強

事實證明我還是蠻堅強的 哈

我還是會偶爾想家 淡淡的

像是覆蓋在皮膚表層上的那一層保護膜

肉眼看不到的理所當然存在著 卻偶爾會被皮膚上的汗毛牽動情緒

今天就暫時說那麽多了.

:)

bubb bubb bubble gum.

她問他是不是在吃糖

他張開嘴巴

是口香糖

他輕輕親了她

她問他這是什麽

他把項鏈挂在她身上

又輕輕親了她

她說再見

他說很高興認識你

她輕輕親了他

記住了甜甜的口香糖

Life is like a maze.

it's been sm time after my last post.

summer starts and nw half is gone.

just wanna share a nice song today, enjoy:)

M-A-P T-H-E Soul, M-A-Z-E, lose control.

M-A-Z-E, my life is amazin'

Three blind mice as we're lost in the maze route, lookin' for the easiest possible way out.
Day in and day out, you run into a closed road. Turning into old folk, chasing after rose gold.
What they don't know is that it belongs to a fool.
Choosing wants over needs, singing songs of a mule.
Carrying their burdens when you barely know the person,
and that is the difference between a pharaoh and a servant.
I choose to serve no man but serve mankind,
at the same time avoiding all of Earth's landmines.
You step in it and you blow up,
you exit or you grow up, or get locked up.
The pigs catch ya eating donuts.
But I'd rather rhyme bars than sit behind bars.
How can a prison cell contain this shining bright star.
They have no idea what I could do in a minute's time.
Break down the walls of the maze and run through the finish line.

Life is like a maze...when I'm flippin' through the pages.


It's high definition black and white.
Is it digital, analog, wack or tight?
It's stressful wishing sacrifice, and the list goes on. It's the facts of life.
East coast ettiquite, west coast slang.
Peace we'll never get if shit don't change.
Do you play with the majors or go independent?
Gotta stay paid but I'm broke like a peasant.
Love, sex, greed, addictions. What's next?
Need directions. There's nobody left to follow.
Wallow in my sorrow for a hollow tomorrow.
Life is like a maze, try to keep track of the days that take us from place to place.
Awaken and face-to-face.
Too many choices, possibilities, indecision is killing me.
And if you lend a helping hand, then I will follow willingly.

Life is like a maze...when I'm flippin' through the pages.


M-A-P T-H-E Soul, M-A-Z-E, lose control.

M-A-P T-H-E Soul


Flip through fashion magazines, cop a swag or lean.
When nothing's goin' 'smooth', rub a little vaseline.
Do an online, offline, frontline search. Either quench or confine your Columbine thirst. Cuz you wanna fit in...
and find a perfect 'match' to set your heart in flames. You wanna be a catch.
Catch-22, catch the flu, catchphrase.
By any means necessary in this rat's maze.
It's a black haze muddle, a rainy day puddle...
life is gonna wet ya, get ya in a muzzle.
A struggle to survive, a huddle nine to five with no quarterback.
Change? You won't even get a quarter back.
It's a murder fact, reality kills. Call your doctor now for your reality pills.
Chill, but still worry... a bug's goin' around.
Cuz life is like your homie, it's 'holdin' u down'.

Life is like a maze... when I'm flippin' through the pages.

100623

不去看

不去想

不去聼

但是偶然

看到 想到 聽到

都會直擊心里

我又想哭了

那段有你們的輕狂時期

永遠停留在記憶里

I'm a sophomore.

是學期的最後一天 是考試的最後一天

半夜還在跟行銷搏鬥 但是似乎我處於弱勢

今天不知道那根經不對 我一向自傲的記憶力並沒有派上用場

不是經不對 我知道是心在鬧彆扭

明明要靠的是行銷受理一直拿著計算機

在算自己這次到底只要要考多少就可以過關

我要求沒有很多 只要過了就好

升達三的暑假我沒有回家 我沒有後悔 我以爲我忘記想家

但是原來我在想我忘記想家就是我在想家的時候 哈 好繞口

只是方式不一樣 想家 現在是淡淡的 因爲離開好久了

今天哭了 把半年來被封閉的眼淚都放逐

不哭 不是因爲沒有眼淚 眼淚還是一樣多 只是流出來的變少了

開始望有一個人在 可以讓我躲在他影子下

我不需要被保護 但是在心累了的時候有個可以暫時停留的地方

還好現在還有親愛的部落格提供我休息的地方

每天都有讓人忘記不愉快的理由 總是來得很突然

我期待今天的驚喜 為每個今天瘋狂

行銷考試順利。

Love.

I was watching at this picture, my mom posted on my facebook wall.

I was so tiny, so small.

Smiles on my face, I see happiness, I see love.

How's it feel like raising up a child, watch her grow and let her go?

The thought made me cry, can't control my tears from dropping.

I miss momma and papa so bad.

I thought I forgot, but then I realise I had never stop missing them.

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

- song recommended by yc -

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everything makes me feel bad for last night, tho i did nth wrg.

saying "i'm not blaming you" in a blaming tone.

saying "how am i suppose to know" to someone which is not suppose to know more.

what can i do than accept the fact?

hah, such a sarcasm.

...

i was viewing through my dear roomate's blog, and i find out thr's a bunch of thgs tht i've missed. and the last post of mine was 3 months ago, hw could it be?

still having hangover, and yea i went clubbing agn last night. im actually awake but i waiting till sonia's out. guess i jz dun wanna talk to her face to face cz tht makes me feel guilty. i've nvr think of how bad izzit to go clubbing every week continuosly for 7 weeks and this morning i feel something dfif. pretending to be sober even tho i totally drunk, jz to take care of another girl who always promised she won't get drunk and keep asking for alcohol tho i refuse to bend down for her demand whn i think it's enough for her. i get use to it. taking care's not a big deal, and i rly had fun with her.

thr's nth to say abt my 3-months-life except for clubbing, i hv hills of stuff waiting on the to-do-list but i just threw it away. we have 3 days holiday but nw i didn't even get 1 over 6 done.

typing this post make me feel worse.

clubbing.

had so much fun clubbing, and i've been clubbing for 3 weeks continuosly.
went to babe18 agn but this time with dear jessica and cindy, and with the new frn kiwi and of course van. that night was totally crazy and unbelievable, lol i cnt stop thinking of laughing every time i remind.

cindy's tipsy after 10 mins we got in, and then got drunk after having absinthe 5 mins later. and she was drunk for the whole night even after we got out of the club!!! it's a 5-hour-time!!!

jeannie's asking us out to babe18 agn tonight, i really wanna go cz i din act play hard the night before, eaxhausted taking care of cindy who's gone for half of the night and busy finding for her. but unfortunately cindy doesn't wanna go, so i passed.

can't wait for the next time:D

Aziatix

Okay...I found an amazing group ytd. I was so shocked when I first played the song. The song was so smooth and the genre's totally my cup of tea:D

It's the Aziatix with members Nicky Lee, Eddie Shin and Flowsik.

I believe that most of the ppl may knw who's Nicky, a american born korean which is active in the chinese musics industry in taiwan. I like him pretty much because he has a cute personality he speaks slangish chinese and sings well. I act followed his albums and they were good.

And then we move on to Eddie Shin, he used to be in GOOD ENtertainment (Lyn and Shinhwa's company), and had released his very one album “Just My Way ”last time. I wonder why didn't he hit the charts at that time, his vocal is soooo dusgusting gorgeous and make me fell into her voice immediately.

Followed by flowsik, I think I've seen his name somewhere else but I couldn't rmb. Anyway, he plays music underground and is kinda famous (? I had no idea abt tht, jzrefering to the infos I searched) among the undergraounds in NY. He wrote rap lyrics for JYJ for one of their song name "Love you".

The album's produced by Jae Chong, yea another american-korean producer.
According to YC, the song is so "Bravebrother" even the rapping part, I love Hip Hop-R&B real much and this is why I'm repeating this song non-stop since last night

.

They were trying to hit the America charts with this song and so far not aiming the asia market. I believe they cn get good results if they aim for the asia markets but for America, it's hard to say. I mean, tons of asians (or even asian-americans) failed trying but who knws how will it be for Aziatix? We'll wait and see. p.s: well mayb FM's a real successful example:)

Now here's the MV for the song "Go"which is finally released. Listen carefully to Eddie's part at 0:20, omg it freaks me out!!!! Imma burst into tears for hearing this, rhythm touches my heart.

Well the lyrics's interesting, saying a guy who plays a lot's gon leave his girlfriend. Telling his gf that's it's him causing the stuation not her. Act it's a cruel song but they sang in in such touching way...arghh. Guys are bad, and they really do, a song full of reality. LOL

Lyrics here:D

Don’t have the words to say but baby I’m goin’ away…
I took another road ahead and I’ll be so far away…

Gonna fly to where my water’s sky blue
Martini, Margaritas on the beach
Yeah now’s the time to party the night through
Not you girl no one but me

Rap I
It was nice to greet ya, and it was nice to meet ya but I know that I'm off the hook I'm fishing for another keeper / I'll delete ya' never reach ya' girl I'm done with putting you on, on // never call you again cuz' I'm gone with the wind for the kid it's time to move on, on //

Baby I don’t mean to be cliché but it’s not you girl but me
Still got a lot of player left in me so I’ll be on my way

Chorus
Babe I gotta GO GO baby roll…Adios and I’m out the door
Babe I gotta GO GO baby roll…Can’t go on playin’ you no more
Gonna go far away
Babe I’m goin’ far far away
Babe I gotta GO GO Adios…It’ll never be the way it was before
Gonna go far away
Babe I’m goin’ far far away

Rap II
Too many times have I lost control, and now I'm steady walking out the door // and it's only right for me to let you know / I'm gone .. on the next jet to a set where I don’t need nothing planned and //
Party it up with all I can, with all my will, with all I am /

Sometimes lovers need a holiday and that’s just the way it is
I see the stars aligned we’re ready to go
[ES/NL]Show you that the world is ready for me (yeah)

Chorus:
Babe I gotta GO GO baby roll…Adios and I’m out the door
Babe I gotta GO GO baby roll…Can’t go on playin’ you no more
Gonna go far away
Babe I’m goin’ far far away
Babe I gotta GO GO Adios…It’ll never be the way it was before
Gonna go far away
Babe I’m goin’ far far away

Bridge
Gonna fly to where my water’s sky blue
Martini, Margaritas on the beach
Yeah now’s the time to party the night through
Not you girl no one but me

Rap III
That's right It's time for me to party it up...and it ain’t starting with us / just me and the team overseas we're going off to the club //I said I’m going g g going gone // I said I'm going g g going gone //

Chorus
Babe I gotta GO GO baby roll…Adios and I’m out the door
Babe I gotta GO GO baby roll…Can’t go on playin’ you no more
Gonna go far away
Babe I’m goin’ far far away
Babe I gotta GO GO Adios…It’ll never be the way it was before
Gonna go far away
Babe I’m goin’ far far away

I don’t have the words to say…but baby I’m goin’ away…

XOXO

You may not be her first, her last or her only.

She loved before she may love again.

But if she loves you now, what else matters?

She's not perfect, you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make u laugh cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don'y hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't exect more than she can give.

Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not here.

-Bob Marley-

I used to worry a lot the thing about friendship in those days, crying and complaining about her, her and her. This year I'm 20, thinking back make me laugh, looking back at my growing-up-process. I'm no more a girl who complains a lot as i payed. I still pay but there's less complains, cause I knew all the changes were just life cycles. No matter they were far away from me, or is just beside me, I love them all. A LOT.

LOHAS.

been clubbing quite a lot these days, expressing pressures.
film making is finally over and we were super hyper all day long. and so we decide to go clubbing real sudden, babe was sooo perfect for dancing and shouting. we drank a lil and even get to get on the stage as the MC asked us to.

the night was crazy, having loads of fun dancing. we went to tiff's place later then. three of us squeezed on a queen size bed after taking bath, had sweet dreams. woke up at 12 and moved to the living room, curled on the couch agn, we talked a lot, mostly about was happened these days.

then, fell asleep. woked up at 3 agn and tiff's mom brought us for steamboat, it's pretty nice. except for the living-shrimp which is still moving, ouch!!! had ice cream afterwards and then lunch-dinner's done. we visited super markets adn 7-elevens, got ourselves ice creams agn, had lil shopping with a-sec-a-footstep speed.

we walked so slowly on the street, wind blowing softly and sun shines on us warmly. waking up and layed back, chatted and fell asleep.

i wish everyday could be just like today, no such thg like pressure, no rushes, a lohas life which is full of happiness ♥

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看到你嘴角還是會不經意地上揚

有暖風陽光的下午 我走在看得到影子的路上

有點酸 有點甜

你還在那裏 好久不見:)

我想起永遠的十五嵗

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spring break goes real fast and it's the last day. did nth in my to-do-list including those homeworks given in classes. advertisement designs, radio programme planning, fous group interview...bla bla bla. it's like prefossers think that we have a one-month-long vacation.

anyway, i still had quite great time spent with dearest carmen. we talked a lot in those two night that we slept together, mostly im the one talking. she always blamed me for not to hang out with her bf and finally i told her the reason which makes me not to. we're good nw, act i wish to be get in good relation with her bf either, bcz he's the person who my dearest frand loves, and when she told me abt the feelings she hv make me feel like crying, that's sooo sweet. well...im happy my loves ones get along well with their love ones. and i hope everyone in the world stays real good with their love ones. (and nw im wondering am i doin some kinda toung twister?! LOL)

watched many movies these days, mostly love stories. love stories always make me cry, crying bcz of happiness. they were pretty touching, which makes me feel that love's beatiful. and nw seems like i shd've name this post "LOVE". it was jz bcz i felt love this springXD

and also we hv sad stories for spring vacation, life's always not that perfect. but then "what happens in vegas stays in vegas", we'll jz leave it in the past although it rly bothers me. im gon enjoy the last day of spring break, get my work done and do revision for the exam coming soon on next week. wish me luck, cheers.

HIM♥

Heartbeats whenever I saw him.

I'm saying abt the ideal guy I finally met in real life.

A man-like-boy, A boy-like-man.

Suddenly remind me of the dream I dreamed earlier.

Felt happiness :)

LOVE.

i chose to express my feelings in this post, and not the one which i planned to post few hours ago.
mom talked to me in FB chat.

she's always wrying that i hv work to do, so she nvr take much time talking to me. she nvr knew that i was always happy to have her msg, even jz writing down my name in the chatbox.

mom: 最近怎樣？爸問我如台灣輻射嚴重要不要叫萁回來？你看他多愛你。
make me feel like crying. i shouldn't have let my parents wry bt what cn i do? that's not a kinda situation which i cn control and let them not to wry, but i rly hope i could. god bless japan and radiation go away.

i love my family...a lot.
no, even much much more than "a lot".

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here we go come with me
there's a world out there that we should see
take my hand close your eyes
with you right here i'm a rocketeer

lets fly.



stay tune for the next post:)

你知道我想說什麽

親愛的你 親愛的他 你知道我想說什麽
很快就到狂歡的夜晚 現在是開始前的22小時
我坐在電腦前 手指在鍵盤上打字的速度很慢 開始 停頓 開始 停頓
思緒還在轉 我只是想寫些東西
電腦不知道爲什麽 也不知道什麽時候不再大聲吵了
桌上堆滿了書 地上掉的頭髮有點多 衣櫃塞得太滿 地上還有一大袋衣服
開學3個禮拜 垃圾上午才剛丟

享受變身的快樂 那是不一樣的我
比較狂妄 比較放肆 比較不會顧慮什麽
但是燈一亮我還是平常的我 沒有什麽不一樣
雖然不會踫到愛情 但基本上跟童話故事沒有什麽不一樣
知道隱藏的自己是什麽 那是每個女孩永遠的秘密

20嵗 是女人 還是女孩
看著別人説是女人 檢視自己卻是女孩
我還沒做好準備 因爲我知道女人要承受的有多少
我不再急著長大 因爲長大的路上會有好多我不想知道的現實
是學著承認自己是女人的女孩 不是希望自己還是還沒長大的女孩

現實好可怕 眼淚還是一樣多 只是流出來的變少了
災難好可怕 恐懼還是一樣多 只是表現出來的變少了
應該做的是給與信心而不是大聲哭泣
其實眼淚還是一樣多 只是流出來的變少了
我也現在才驚覺

樂天是禮物 很棒的禮物 但
其實悲傷辛苦還是一樣多 只是忘記了
但終究會回到心理

你知道我除了胡言亂語 想說的是什麽。

Today's Big News.

Something shocking happened just a few mins ago.
I'll show yall a picture 1st.

This is a post i posted on my mom's FB wall, asking her to giv me a call 2mr.


After reading the pic, did u get what I wanna tell in this blogpost?
No? Now look at this again. Focuz on the red circle.


Yea, the word "夜店" came out in the sentence!!!!
I'm shocked, totally SHOCKED.

I knew my mom knws her daughter well, and I knew she probably knws her daughter went to clubs, but I thought she'll jz keep it secret.
I nvr aspect that she'll straightly write that to me.

Well, that makes me SUPER DIFFIDENT. But I'm feeling funny at the same time.lol

Mom, I love you.

p.s: and sry for the perfunctory ending.

他。

去年九月寫的一篇 結果被丟在草稿箱都怪被遺忘了

http://n-logic.blogspot.com/2010/09/blog-post_05.html

Before & After

Actually, I rly enjoy the moment when ppl can't recognise me after I did make ups or after removing make ups, alright I'm weirdo. I don't care if ppl says: "u're a lair", cause I'm just one of those girls who look rly look diff after putting on make ups, but it's just to make myself happy to be pretty :D

here's the picture of BEFORE and AFTER.

Him.

He was the one who ask for a dance.
His name was Teddy.
Smiling and looking at her face, with a lollipop in his mouth.
She dun even dare to look at his eyes so she looked away.
Had a sip of wine from the glass in his hand, she smells scent of wine and lollipop in his breathe.
He was still looking at her, she was still looking away.

And then he left, and then she left.

Just like most of the unexpected enconter, back to the moment when they never met.

Here I Am.

Here I Am

在這 Here I Am

Here I Am 我現在在這 我就在這。

每聼一次這首歌都有好深的感觸
嘻嘻哈哈過著每一天 應該是最擅長的僞裝
有很多話説不出口 很多事不敢去做
但是無所謂的話又吵吵鬧鬧說了好多 生活亂七八糟該做的都做完了但是沒有幾樣是自己真正想要的
一種想要被確認的存在 太在意的其實是自己看自己的眼光


Here I Am
尋找對自己的認同 很努力地活著。

Happy Birthday.

It's your birthday.

I've wrote u letters in the past few years, with love.
I can still rmb the heartbeat, tears and laughter i had.

You were one of the best thing I've ever had,
and an important part which plays an important role in my life.

Time flies and this is the 6th year since the 1st time I wrote to you.
I'm now a 20-year-old grown up girl, but I'll never forget the 14-year-old girl which is totally into you.
You're now a real man but I'll never forget the boy with the lovely-shining smile.
I cried again, but the tears are for happiness.

"It's good to see you."
I have too much to say but that's the sentence which comes out in my mind.
Thanks for the memories you gave me, and thank you for giving me a chance to know you.

Happy Birthday, Yunho.

You know I love you, forever.

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It’s been nearly 2 months since my last post, and that shows how busy I am, have no time and no mood for blogging at all. And finally I finshed all those annoying stuffs and im bc in Malaysia again, my lovely hometown.

I apreeciate the times when I get home. Weather's awesome, foods are delicious, highschool besties are great, family’s super duper lovely. I can have enough sleep, enjoyed my time daydreaming without any pressure, even wasting my time on those don't-know-what-did-I-do things.

By the way, I’m goin to get my hair cut, permed and dyed soon:D

Im home and im good, HOLA everyone.