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不去看

不去想

不去聼

但是偶然

看到 想到 聽到

都會直擊心里

我又想哭了

那段有你們的輕狂時期

永遠停留在記憶里

I'm a sophomore.

是學期的最後一天 是考試的最後一天

半夜還在跟行銷搏鬥 但是似乎我處於弱勢

今天不知道那根經不對 我一向自傲的記憶力並沒有派上用場

不是經不對 我知道是心在鬧彆扭

明明要靠的是行銷受理一直拿著計算機

在算自己這次到底只要要考多少就可以過關

我要求沒有很多 只要過了就好

升達三的暑假我沒有回家 我沒有後悔 我以爲我忘記想家

但是原來我在想我忘記想家就是我在想家的時候 哈 好繞口

只是方式不一樣 想家 現在是淡淡的 因爲離開好久了

今天哭了 把半年來被封閉的眼淚都放逐

不哭 不是因爲沒有眼淚 眼淚還是一樣多 只是流出來的變少了

開始望有一個人在 可以讓我躲在他影子下

我不需要被保護 但是在心累了的時候有個可以暫時停留的地方

還好現在還有親愛的部落格提供我休息的地方

每天都有讓人忘記不愉快的理由 總是來得很突然

我期待今天的驚喜 為每個今天瘋狂

行銷考試順利。

Love.

I was watching at this picture, my mom posted on my facebook wall.

I was so tiny, so small.

Smiles on my face, I see happiness, I see love.

How's it feel like raising up a child, watch her grow and let her go?

The thought made me cry, can't control my tears from dropping.

I miss momma and papa so bad.

I thought I forgot, but then I realise I had never stop missing them.

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

- song recommended by yc -

110606

everything makes me feel bad for last night, tho i did nth wrg.

saying "i'm not blaming you" in a blaming tone.

saying "how am i suppose to know" to someone which is not suppose to know more.

what can i do than accept the fact?

hah, such a sarcasm.

...

i was viewing through my dear roomate's blog, and i find out thr's a bunch of thgs tht i've missed. and the last post of mine was 3 months ago, hw could it be?

still having hangover, and yea i went clubbing agn last night. im actually awake but i waiting till sonia's out. guess i jz dun wanna talk to her face to face cz tht makes me feel guilty. i've nvr think of how bad izzit to go clubbing every week continuosly for 7 weeks and this morning i feel something dfif. pretending to be sober even tho i totally drunk, jz to take care of another girl who always promised she won't get drunk and keep asking for alcohol tho i refuse to bend down for her demand whn i think it's enough for her. i get use to it. taking care's not a big deal, and i rly had fun with her.

thr's nth to say abt my 3-months-life except for clubbing, i hv hills of stuff waiting on the to-do-list but i just threw it away. we have 3 days holiday but nw i didn't even get 1 over 6 done.

typing this post make me feel worse.