Coward.

coward's my forever prob which i cn nvr go thru i think. faught with my best friend tonight bcz i dare nt say sry to her on face, and tht' the main reason she get mad instead of what i did wrg. and it's rly my prob when i think back, bt i jz cnt find the right way, th right timing, and the right bravory to apologise, or to point out things ppl did wrg. im always putting myself in thre worse positipn bcz of that. and i think J's right, i've always been thinking abt myself by nt others, i always hide frm the prob i met. and that's the reason why in so upset for myself and cnt atop thinking and crying. and also i cried cz i hate fighting, even if it's my fault or others's. still so much to keab and to change:( god bleas i cn fin my trip with peace. still love u dearest J, and im so sry for what happened tonight. i knw it might b something real small to others and it's amt big to u, and o me either, that's why i dare not talk to u face to face. swear im gon work hard to change the bad personality!!